I will always have a low buzzing of anxiety running through my blood. This I know for sure. I will always be working twice as hard as those who don't have mental illness just so I can appear normal. It makes me sad, sure, but... I guess I'm lucky: Lachrista Marie Greco never existed without anxiety--so I have no previous self to mourn.
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I wonder what it's like to not feel every sensation in one's body. I have never known that, and I'm not sure I ever will.
Sometimes, I work to disassociate from my body. Sometimes, I find it necessary to try my best to NOT feel things.
Because, truthfully, I've never felt that I'm "OK."
Living in my body has been more difficult than not for me. I have some "better" days, but none are completely devoid of worrying about each and every sensation I feel.