TW: sexual assault, physical abuse
I'm terrified of dating.
It used to be kind of fun. During grad school, I pretty much had dinner paid for each night of the week (men are always wanting to invoke the very gendered and ancient "rules" surrounding dinner dates).
Dating has got me tired. Worse, it has hardened me. It has made me jaded and cynical and untrustworthy.
It has, quite literally, assaulted me.