My First Cleanse: An Intro

26 Jan

I’m going to be doing a “Wellness Cleanse” through the yoga studio I attend. It consists of eating healthy (mostly veg. or vegan) and then doing liquids for three days (broth and smoothies). Throughout it all, we have meetings to talk about our feelings and all that glorious stuff. We also have restorative yoga classes, as well as vinyasa classes that we will be taking. An “Intuitive Healer” is coming and we’re also touring the Whole Foods in Lincoln Park, which is amazing and enormous.

All of this is awesome, but I’m so nervous. I’ve never done a cleanse, and the last time I was on a liquid diet, it was for quite some time when I was extremely ill, and my doctor put me on it–it was not fun. So, needless to say, I have some PTSD from that whole situation. I’m also just worried, because I’m not sure how I will do. I have difficulty trusting my body, and I’m always symptomatizing. My anxiety disorder tends to show itself through physical symptoms, and instead of just “being” with my feelings, I try to intervene–I take some form of “medicine”, when really, I should just let it be. I’m constantly afraid of feeling “off.”

My goals for the cleanse include:

-Trusting my body, NOT intervening
-Eating healthy and mindfully
-Removing negative influences (people, things, types of foods)
-Gaining some clarity

The program starts tomorrow. We have our “Orientation” tomorrow night. I will blog through the entire process. Wish me luck!

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Girlships: When Friendships Have Sailed

17 Jan

(Names have been changed to protect the guilty)

My most profound girlship began in 8th grade. It was really more of a girl gang–there were four of us: Jessica, Jenny, and Claire. We were inseparable. Three of us even started a band together later that year called, The Aviators–Claire acted as our “manager.” Continue reading 

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Mata Hari: Alone in the Presence of Men

14 Jan

“I will be celebrated… or notorious.” -Mata Hari


Mata Hari. You have probably heard of her before, but do you know her story? She was an exotic dancer of Dutch descent, who was accused later in life of being a spy for Germany by the French. Hari was executed by a firing squad, and she never should have been. You see, it was later found that Hari was, in fact, not a spy. Two things she was which made her an easy target? Sexual and female.

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“Suck in your ribs!”: My life in the Ballet

12 Jan

Suzanne Farrell

I used to think there was one type of female beauty: the ballet aestheticContinue reading 

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Italian Feminist Films: The Girl With The Pistol

9 Jan

Film: La Ragazza con La Pistola (The Girl With The Pistol)
Starring:  Monica Vitti as Assunta Patane & Carlo Giuffrè as Vincenzo Macaluso
Year: 1968

This film is lovely. It was nominated for an Academy Award for “Best Foreign Language Film” (even though the majority of the film is in English). Monica Vitti won the David di Donatello Award for “Best Actress.” Continue reading 

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